One Week and One Day

Yesterday marked my first whole week here - where has the time gone!

Time is such a odd 'thing'. For example when I was at university, sitting at my IMac in one of the media suits from 7am till gone 11pm, time flew, it genuinely freaked me out a bit that time could go that fast and that sense of 'where has the day gone' gave me urgency to get out and live my life Every. Single. Day. Maybe that's what sparked such enthusiasm within me to venture to Geneva?

As i've described to my wonderful national trust best friend! "I’m finding the days are going a lot slower here which is nice in some ways to be able to actually have time move slow and life be slowed down but also it’s pants in some ways that I quite honestly want to just see everyone back home so I want time to go quicker! I’m just taking a day as it comes and trying to make the most of it because I know in the long run I’ll be home before I know it and time will fly again..."

Yes, I want time to speed up, however I have finally got into a head space where, although I'm still not exactly a happy bunny, I'm using this time to my advantage to meet new people and explore the local spots (which is what I love to do at the best of times).

What I've Done In My Free Time (6.30pm onwards)

Wednesday - I went to Balexert to meet Katie for ice-cream

Thursday - I went to this awesome bar, The "O'brassure", a micro-brewery. I drank the beer, and loved it! It was also very much needed after driving into Geneva City Centre for work, which is usually a 30 minute drive, it took me 2 hours! People warned me about Geneva traffic and it was one of those cases where I didn't believe them until I experienced it myself! Trust me, if you can avoid it, do!

Friday (Today) - I didn't have the kids all day so I straightened up the house, met a friend for a walk around Lake Divonne and coffee and again went out in the evening for dinner!

Saturday and Sunday - Im going to my Aunty Lisa's house. Am I nervous about driving there, yes, but it's got to be done but also i'm so excited about seeing her and my cousins and to be able to RELAX, fully relax. My heads been in such high intense action mode I'm beyond ready to not have to think or keep it together. I can be totally and utterly calm.

Besides friends and sight seeing, what an opportunity to practice driving on the 'right' hand side of the road because I have no doubt there will be a lot more of that in store and finally, probably most importantly to experience being independent of my support network, which is what I originally intended this trip to be, to learn to be okay with myself and grow in confidence that I can figure out how to get somewhere on my own. Historically I am known to have the worst sense of direction and get lost going to my regular and local beauticians, which hopefully clarifies why I have such a lack in confidence within myself to get somewhere on my own.

I'd say I threw myself into the deep end to say the least moving here and ever so slightly misled myself. In that I only thought of the positives and completely neglecting the cons. When I say that, I really mean I didn't think about a single one! People warned me I'd be homesick but never did I expect it to be this intense and a word that comes to mind 'brutal'. I have never nor ever will do things by halves and I will grab, with both hands, any opportunity that comes my way. If it takes me flying to another country to discover more definitively about what I want in life and to develop my character, so be it, however tough that journey may be.

This time last week, I never thought I'd see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I am slowly coming through to the better side, a side where I am accepting my circumstances and going with it, I know what I needed to make me feel better, and I'm putting plans in action to make that happen. I'm getting excited about the little things and Gods giving me the grace to take each day in my stride.

Lots of Love,

Amber xxx