Week Two - No Plain Sailing

The template starting a new post prompts the writer (me!) "start your great post here". I'm not sure if there is any 'great' way about starting or ending this! But I've been here two weeks to the day and this morning..I QUIT.

Shoot, I quit my job I flew to another country to do! Do I feel anxious or regretful about the fact I left my position only 2 weeks in? not in the slightest. Please don't be to hasty to judge me! I am not a quitter, I have character and strength to endure harder times and I will persevere each and every day that goes by no matter how upset, frustrated or overwhelmed I feel. At the end of the day, I like to see things through to the end, having given my absolute all.

However, when you know you know right? We're told to trust our 'gut instinct' and I have been in just enough situations where I know what I have needed to do and what has felt right or wrong, trusting my gut. This (as unfortunate as it is) is one of those times where I knew, like I knew this was not the right path for me in the long term, shorter term it's been harder then I could have ever imagined and have felt horrific, more then words could describe but a lesson learnt.

I have learnt so much being here that i'd like to share, mainly as a reminder to myself!

1. I am a family person! I tried to suppress that for so long, wanting to love just being an out and about kind of girl living life anywhere and everywhere, not wanting to come close to being a 'stay at home mum' (long way off but you catch my drift!). In actual fact, I am happiest when I am around family. I mean the proof is in what the heck i'm doing - i'm a nanny! That's basically what a stay at home mum is, but getting paid for it!

2. I have and always will appreciate 'luxury' and the craftsman ship that goes into high end goods. I can also appreciate holidays, from an african slum (which I genuinely have been to) to the ritz. I love culture. I have been trying to persuade Jack to go on holidays with me, because I love exploring with him, but secretly underlying there was a need to be satisfied and I was deluded to think I would find that satisfaction and contentment in travel. Yes I enjoy holiday and designers but untimely, arguably the biggest lesson I have learnt is that these things just don't fulfil me. Good, old fashioned family time does.

3. Last but not least, I am a christian and it has pushed me to be my most vulnerable. Which in turn has literally forced me to rely on God every day, something I will never forget and I can only pray my faith develops upwards from here.

Now my notice has been handed in, it is time to relax a little, the heavy burden has been lifted and it's about time I explored! First up - Lac De Divonne, look forward to showing you the pictures tomorrow.

Lots of Love, Amber